My session today went well and was really needed and all.

Towards the end, though, when I told her about my desires to disappear, I promised her that if my desires get any louder and my thoughts become...plans, that I would reach out to her.  She seemed a bit concerned that I already had a...ideal method in mind.  But I have reasons why it would not come to that, and she asked me about those as well.

I wrote out a response and everything too, though I want to go through it a few more times I think before I possibly send it off.  She told me that I do not need to respond unless it is for me and I do not need to make him feel better or anything...everything is for me and it should be dependent on what I want.  That I can feel bad and I still care because I'm a good person, but I am under no obligation to make him feel better.  That just because he is sorry and feels bad does not mean that I should tell him that everything is okay.

Bah, I don't know if I should say all this that I have in here...


Need to do some work.