Talked with my momma and she helped me feel a little bit better for the time being.

She said she would like it if I didn't go down to UC tomorrow, knowing how angry I am and fearing the high probability I would run into the ex if I went.  And she has a very very good point.  Again, I'm faced with the dilemma I had to think about last week: if I go and do not see him, it will be fantastic.  I'll hang with awesome people and have a really good time.  However, if I bump into him, not only could it make my weekend worse, it could potentially have bad consequences for during the week as well.

I said I would think about it a little more - because I really really want to see other people and I hate the fact that once again I might end up just fucking hiding up here in Binghamton because he is down there - and she told me that whatever I choose to do, she hopes I have a fun weekend.


But that guy and I have still been texting nonstop and he is just really really sweet.  And when I told him that I might have trouble with emotions and stuff because I tend to be very shut in with them, especially after being so effectively destroyed for a long time, he told me that that was okay.  That I could be a shut-in and I could hide as much as I needed to.  That he doesn't want to pressure me into anything, but know that he just wants to be kind to me and doesn't want to hurt or burn me or anything.

And I really appreciated that.

Even though I am still somewhat guarded.

Experience has taught me to be, honestly.

But...I do like texting him a lot.