I'm sitting here with Brendan doing work and I still can't get rid of this knot in my stomach.

Man.

I just.

I don't know.  The jealousy/rage is really overwhelming tonight.

Part of me wants to cry, but that would be really bad to do right now.

Ugh.  I don't know what to do.

Fuck you.  I hate you so goddamn much.  So much that I don't know how to handle it at all.

I want to throw up.