One of my neighbours has been blasting music with the bass like...completely cranked up for the past few days and it is so goddamn annoying and I can't stand it.  Ugh.  I should just go find out who it is and ask them to turn it down because all it does is make my headache feel even worse than it does right now.  But that requires me to find out exactly who it is and talk to them and...meh I don't really want to.

Even though I felt awful the last time I tried to drink, part of me is thinking about going to the bar and having something just because I feel so unbelievably shitty and lame and sad right now and all I really want is a goddamn drink.

I wanted to do a bunch of work tonight but maybe it would be better if I just took today off since I'm feeling so down and stuff.

I wish someone would come play video games with me or something.  Like...'Splosion Man or something, even though I wasn't really very good at it.  I dunno.  I'm feeling sad and filled with old memories for some reason and that is making me sadder even though I shouldn't be because of reasons.

Meh.

I'm really stupid.