I'm feeling really sad and inadequate.  I hate when these feels arise because of an assignment.  All I'm thinking is how when my professor told me I was a good student that's not actually true and everything is going to come crashing down eventually because I actually just suck at everything and I'm not going to be able to do the advanced coding I need to do in order to get publications and hdsjk.

I realize that I'm just thinking kind of extremely (and perhaps more than a bit melodramatically), maybe...and I guess that recognition is better than usual, but it isn't making me feel much better, though.


I just would like someone to cuddle with at night sometimes.

Tonight is one of those nights.