So I looked up a Coheed and Cambria playlist on youtube because I've been meaning to listen to their stuff since they keep popping up as recommendations for me.  However, when 'Wake Up' is the first goddamn song on the playlist, it sort of turns me off to it for the time being.

I mean, the song sounded beautiful, but the lyrics - despite being well-written, in my opinion - immediately brought up a bunch of sad and angry feels concerning him.  Thus, I immediately closed that tab and went back to my own music.  World/Inferno doesn't bring up such bad emotions, aha (which is kind of odd, considering they were his band and then I got into them afterward).  But usually World/Inferno is the best band for me to put on to get me in a not so angry/sad mood.

Of course I will not judge Coheed and Cambria negatively because of my reaction, but because of it I just don't want to listen to them right now.  I could have easily just skipped past that one track and continued but I don't want to try a new band while I'm not in a good mindframe?  I've done that before and it turned me off to them, and then when I returned and tried again I was like "...actually these guys are awesome," so I don't want that to happen!  I was thinking of trying the Presidents of the United States of America too, but again...I don't want mood to cause a negative reaction!

My mood hasn't really been bad for practically the whole day, and World/Inferno has already pulled me up a little bit.  Plus I've been so productive and I'm still just sitting in my living room and stuff, which I like doing far more than I realized before.  I do want to do more work, but maybe I'll take a break to make dinner and just watch some tv soon, since I've been going nonstop pretty much since I woke up.


Unfortunately, he has really been on my mind today, but aside from right now, not in a very... prominent way?  If that makes sense?  Like not in the 'I'm actively thinking about him' sense but more...he's a nagging thing that is at the back of my mind that I can't seem to push away.  It's like his memory is Navi: constantly annoying me and when it starts to get quiet it's like "HEY, LISTEN" and I'm reminded of it and it just bugs the fuck out of me.  So I'm always reminded that it is there, just acting like that annoying fucking fairy that I wish I could beat into submission and get to shut the fuck up.  Man, sometimes I do wish I could just get hit on the head and develop amnesia and forget all about him and us but aha things don't work like that, do they?

I'm really not as in a bad mood as this makes it sound, honest.  It's just a slight annoyance at the moment.  I guess I'm talking about it because I've been in a good mood today (surprisingly) and anything that changes that in the slightest is going to catch my attention hardcore.  I don't know if that makes any sort of sense, but yeah.

Gonna make delicious pasta now!  Nommmm.