Once again, I am incredibly tired.  This really doesn't shock me, but it still kind of sucks.

Instead of finishing the STATA portion of my assignment last night, I took way too long to finish grading the exams for the American government babies, and so I only was able to finish the first two questions out of I think nine, or something.  Definitely going to regret that today, but my friends all say it really isn't that difficult.  I trust their judgment more than my professor's, who said last week's was easy and we all wanted to throw our laptops out a window, to say the least.

I brought another sandwich in today, so I just need to pay attention to the time and eat when I scheduled myself.  Yesterday I was told I should put it in my phone, and that is actually a good idea and something I still need to do.  I'll do that once this lecture is over.  (The intro kids are just going through the test right now, which they desperately need to do.)  Though right now, my stomach hurts somewhat...it is just really unsettled.  Hopefully that will go away by the time I'm supposed to eat.

I know we need to ask Brendan about living situation and everything, but I really don't want to be the one to bring it up, honestly.  Not going to lie, I did ask Carl if he could be the one to ask, because I don't want to end up word vomiting and say something about his girlfriend that he won't want to hear, or anything like that. And the chances of that happening are somewhat high, truthfully.

Sent an email last night saying I wouldn't be attending Youth and Government, and I have not received a reply.  Really, I hope they're not too mad at me...  I did explain everything somewhat thoroughly, and it does feel like a weight has been lifted off of me, so I don't regret it or anything.  I just hope they understand.

A second-year sent around an email asking for people to host the prospective students, and since there are actually a decent amount of women this year, I volunteered.  Having someone host me last year was really awesome, and I would like to extend that to someone else as well.  Part of me wondered if that was a good idea, since my emotions are always so...all over the place and lately very down, but I wanted to extend that invitation.  Especially since there are not a lot of women in the department and everything.

Lately, I feel as though I've been in a zombie-like state.  I just don't want to do anything and I've been so emotionally drained, for reasons I've talked about extensively.

Really, I just want Spring break to be here.  I could use a week off from everything.  And although I'll have work to do and all, it would still be beneficial for me to not have to go to anything.  Plus, the World/Inferno concert is on the 29th.  I still need to buy my ticket, but that's formality at this point.  I am sort of bummed about what is going to happen after the concert, since Carl is going to probably stay with the person he's sort of dating and Brendan with his girlfriend, and Danny won't be around that weekend, so I won't have anywhere to go.  So I'll probably just head back to the Island, even though it would be incredibly late.  But...I don't know.  Them telling me that made me feel really lonely, since originally I wanted to maybe get a hotel with them and have a fun Saturday in the city and all.  But...yeah.  That isn't going to happen.  Romantic partners overrule friends and all.  And I guess it isn't fair of me to want that anyway, since they see me much more often than them and everything...

I don't know.  I just felt and feel alone.  It kind of smacked me in the face.


I want to go back to sleep.