I finally finished up the memo, but I'm still pretty sure it isn't what my professor wanted, and I am just hoping he will be gentle when he rips it apart.

Sometimes I think I might come across snippy when I talk to my mom on the phone, and I don't mean to at all.  I'm just sad and sometimes she says things that hit me in a bunch of ways and I wish I could tell her and my dad and my family exactly what goes on inside my head.  But I don't want to hurt them, so I would rather just keep all that from them as much as I can.  I already hurt them enough when I was still living at home and going through the beginning months of my breakup and everything.  I don't want to hurt them any more than I already have.  

Really, I don't want to hurt anyone.  Which is why I don't tell people, really.  I almost caved and told McKenna but she was telling me how great her date went and I didn't want to ruin her good mood and everything.  

I really did want to say something though...

Ideal method involves Cornelius.


Am I waiting for something that isn't going to come?  Or am I just impatient?