So there is a squishable sale all day today so I think I'll be getting on that when I wake up.


Some distressing news: my roommate is on my professor's email list for summer research.  This caused me to have a freak out because seriously I don't want to work with his ass.  Ever.  I can't even stand listening to his voice.  And I know I'm being juvenile because I should be professional about this and just accept it but I'm kind of not in the mood to have a stressful summer because of him.  I had a bad enough year and he was an added stress that I really don't want to deal with.  At all.

I'm kind of hoping that we're just under the same advisor but have separate projects, because when I was told about it I was told about two other people I'd be working with.  He was not on that list.


Sometimes I can't tell if guy wants to change things about me.  He says he does not, but I'm not entirely sure.  But he'll say things like that and then also say nice things when I'm sad and I don't really know.

I both want to talk to him, and am weary of him.  Like talking to him, but also feel weird about it.

He has too many characteristics that the ex had.  So the fact that I'm not sprinting away terrifies me.


Really, despite my desire to have a connection, I'm in this weird mode of both wanting to be with someone and wanting to be alone.  These antithetical feelings just put me in sad moods.  Nothing really is satisfactory.  At all.


Sometime I still read her last post on tumblr.