So I was just given the "not ready for anything serious" talk, with the desire to keep things platonic, and although I originally said I wanted that, I'm really sad right now.

I mean, I'm glad he told me now instead of waiting for me to get more attached, or whatnot, but still.

It's not fair of me to want anything more right now anyway.  I'm just a really messed up and broken person.  And no one should have to deal with that.  No one should have to deal with my self-loathing and depression and perfectionism and everything.

Fuck why am I so upset I said just the other day I'd rather this be as it is.


Snowstorm this weekend.