My friends are awesome.  I received many heartfelt texts last night after I relayed the news about me and guy, and they're planning on coming over today to watch movies and play games and (maybe) do some work.  I do need to get some done, aha.  I'm not sure if roommate is having people over for his D&D game, but I don't...really care?  If anything, my friends could hole out in my room until they leave or something.  Though I do want to bake cookies with them.  Because I keep talking about how good they are and everything and they want to try them.

I'm still really bummed, though.  And I kind of want to invite guy over just to hang out, since we said we still want to do that, but I think I'll just be upset more.  I should probably give it a little bit before asking to hang, or anything.  Plus, I said that he should text me when he's available, since I have something of his I need to give back.  So that is all kind of weighing on me.  But talking about puppies and expanding our gaming library for next year with people is helping to distract me.

Speaking of puppies, I'm looking extensively at petfinder right now.  Basically a dog is becoming a must-have for us.  I mean, not only have I always wanted one, but I know they're good for relieving depression symptoms, so I kind of really would like that as well.  An animal companion might help me feel less lonely and sad, especially since it is only sometimes when people are able to do that.  And yes, I'm fully aware of how fucking stupid that sounds.  (And as per ownership, since we're going to have to discuss that, I really...don't want to bring out that excuse/reason at all, but it is my true reason for wanting to be the actual owner of the dog when we get him/her.  I keep saying it is because I've never actually owned a pet before, and while that is true, my real actual reason is that it might really help me, and if I get so attached for the dog to be very helpful to me, I don't want to have to part with him/her at the end of my years here.  But.  Bah.)

I should try to read more before they come over.  Also I think I'll be a bum and just not get dressed.

Going to try actually cooking tonight, so long as my chicken cutlets thaw and everything.  Maybe I should go get mozzarella sticks too...


I still feel really crappy.