I'm updating this a fuck lot lately.  It helps, oddly enough, even if it is about random shit and everything.

I was able to get my medication refilled, though I still need to talk to my doctor about how I'm doing on it and everything.  Plus I should probably let her know I got the refill, and warn her that I'll need approval for more in a month or so, because I don't think I'll be going off this anytime soon.  While I still have problems and still have days where I feel awful and think awful things, I don't feel like that all the time like I practically did before, and those bad days aren't as difficult to get through as the bad days pre-medication.

So I want to stay on this for a while, until someone recommends I get taken off it.

Had people over for gaming tonight after a very long day at the office due to job talk.  It was fun, though I think my ps2 might be busted, which is really upsetting.  A friend was playing it, and it just shut off on him.  I thought maybe it overheated, so he waited for 10-15 minutes before trying again, and got through some before it did it again.  I don't know if it needs a cleaning or if it is just at the end of its days.  Wahh.  Luckily, they are really cheap nowadays.  Even though I don't play it as often as I used to, not having a ps2 in my console library is unfathomable to me, so if it is dead, I will be investing in a new one relatively quickly, I think.

Still haven't received any type of text message or anything from guy, which both saddens and angers me at the same time.  It is just reminding me of past things and making me feel like I misjudged like I've done before and I didn't want to have but whatever.  I'm just tired of being fucking lied to.  But unfortunately, it appears, I am romantically interested in liars?  Ugh.  I don't even know, man.

Listening to The Clash, and bought an album at the awesome game/music/movies/etc. store today (which my friends all loved, aha; it also had Shadow Hearts 1 and my fucking god I was so tempted that game is so fucking good).  It is awesome.  

Kind of feeling weird right now.  I don't really know how to describe it?  Tired because lack of sleep and long day, happy because I hung with fab people and played games (beat final Bowser in Mario 64, huzzah), angry/upset because of guy situation, and stressed because I should have done more work than I did, and that is my own fault.

Maybe I should read a chapter in the book I need to finish for Monday.