Right now

Surprisingly, I actually feel good right now.

I don't know if it is because I'm sitting here eating pasta and just listening to music and just...not really worrying about anything.  Not about work, not about him, not about guy, not about my eating...nothing.  Just sitting here, enjoying my music.  Or if it is because I just had Carl and Brendan over and even though we were doing homework I was glad to just hang with them for a while.  Or if it is because I was able to talk to Anisha for 20 minutes before, which is short for us, but it was still awesome.

I don't know the reason behind this good mood, but I'm thankful for it, whatever it is.

Although I still feel as though I've been short with some people lately, I'm not worried about that at the moment.

My friends know about my feelings, so maybe they (or I'd like to think they would) will give me a break here and there, with my moods.  Thinking that they at least, if not understand, are able to cut me some slack, makes me very happy.

Speaking of food and music, I find cooking much more tolerable when I have music playing while I do it.  I actually made pasta; I've been saying I was going to for weeks now, and I just haven't because of the energy it takes me to cook anything, really.  And am I glad I made it, seriously.  Four cheese sauce with extra mozzarella melted into it?  God.  So yummy.

I'm even pleased that this meal was legitimately enjoyable, rather than me just kind of eating to eat something.

Although this mood will probably not last very long, I'm going to enjoy it for the time being.

It's a peacefulness that I rarely experience.