So I spent the last...at least half hour today in class looking up reaction gifs and sending them via facebook messenger to roommate and he was trying so hard not to laugh.  But yeah...class turned into something confusing and weird and seemingly off-topic.  But, I did, after not having listened for a long time, chime in as if I was paying attention and made a point everyone agreed with and I felt super boss.

(Side note: When I first adopted her, I gave Callie this fuzzy red pillow that I had since I was in high school.  I figured I always had it with me but never really used it too much, and I wanted to give her something special that was mine.  When she had anxiety and was tearing up beds and stuff...that pillow never suffered and remains completely undamaged.  So when she just puts her head on it when she's in bed I get really happy.  Plus it is cute.)

When I got home, though, I guess thoughts and stuff were still rummaging around in my head, because I for the life of me could not focus on getting anything substantial done.  I did take Callie and Murray to play with Lewis, and said when I came back that I would work.  But I didn't.  Then I got pizza and said after I ate I would work...yeah...that didn't happen either.

Finally, I gathered the willpower to read a chapter in a book about proper selection of case studies for case-study analysis that my IR prof sent to me, since the possibility that I will travel down that route to begin with is kind of high.  I still would like to focus on the U.S. perception of allies vs. adversaries thing, but again...lack of time might force me to focus on one or two cases or something.  Bleh.  I'm just kind of all over the place.  One weekend away from Binghamton and work was not nearly enough time.

Though my Uncle called and invited me over for dinner tomorrow while I'm on my way to the Island, which I was not expecting.  But I was pleasantly surprised, and said I would stop by for a bit before finishing the trip down and all.  I know I won't get back to the Island until really late, but luckily my flight isn't too early.  (The return flight though...that isn't going to be fun at all.)

I'm really unexcited for Midwest.  I don't think my paper was ready for presentation, and I haven't worked on it in a while.  I really do not want to travel, even though I guess it is cool I'm going to a place I've never been to before.  What I'm excited most about is seeing best friend since she is coming down from Madison to hang with me and I definitely have zero qualms about blowing some shit off so I can spend time with her.


But yeah...thoughts I posted about before are still in my head and everything, and that is probably a big reason why I am so unfocused.  Of course, another reason is probably just general lack of interest and motivation and emotion.  However, I've just been thinking about random shit that I shouldn't be thinking about and I always go back and forth on things in my head because I am a loser like that.

Again, I might continue my posts about thoughts concerning that, but not at the moment.  Since...I should bed.