My time with undergrad friends has been quite wonderful and I forgot how much I enjoy some of these strange antics and stories that go on and everything.  It is kind of delightful.  On one hand though, it makes me a little sad, because it is just something that has passed, and even though I have friends I love as a grad, I guess it is a world that I know is probably disappearing and I don't really want it to.  Especially given I did not utilize my own senior year very well due to various reasons, so thinking that just makes it worse because I'll never exactly get that time back.

And I re-met someone I forgot about, who is now a senior: he was someone I played Brawl with a lot in lower Wismer and he said that he was always sweating and stuff when he played me because I was apparently very good with Marth and won a lot and all.  Unfortunately, however, ex was brought up at that point, and because he remembered ex how he was and how good he was at that game, I guess some hero-worship started happening and that made me kind of mad and sad at the same time.  I started kind of shooting things down while simultaneously remembering how much fun I would have doing things like that with ex and how fucking cutesy we would be and stuff and I just kept asking myself how the shit did everything happen and that made me sad and angry and I tried to hide it as much as possible.

Again, it was mentioned that the person ex was suddenly disappeared and I joked (/was semi-serious, I guess...or the joke hides a serious concern or something) that aliens just abducted the person I loved and liked to hang out with, who was fun, cute, funny, caring, kind, and all that, and replaced him with an identical clone who was just a giant selfish douchebag and that I would absolutely love if the prior version returned because I would love to hang out with him again (specifically I said date but whatevs, I guess).  And it isn't like the former version couldn't have his own issues and have sad feels and stuff.  It is just he wasn't as terrible about things, I suppose.

Also I am starting to think my hating on the ex's frat is starting to get annoying to people and I am sorry about that.  My bitterness just shines through when I am on campus, I guess.  Despite, you know, that I have this weird love-hate thing towards them that I can't really describe.  Like...when I'm there I want to go to that house and everything but also just hate on things when I'm there.  It's weird.

Anyway, yeah.  It has been good yet still kind of sad in my own way because I overthink everything in my life.  We did get to diner and watch Frozen in Olin Auditorium and walk around and we nommed DQ and Callie got lots of attention and it really was just a good day overall.

I did try to do some work but am still having a lot of issues finding data so that is annoying and shit.

Tomorrow is the actual party which should be good, though I probably won't be able to stay for long, unfortunately.  Gotta get back to Bing and prepare shit for Monday, unfortunately.  Sob.