Today was prospectus day and I have never felt more anti-social.  Well...I probably have, but today it was felt kind of hardcore since I was expected to socialize and everything.

Mostly I ended up sticking with people I already knew, and I was able to talk to a few professors a bit more.  I learned that a professor originally from Germany is actually like...the most badass person ever and she loves going to concerts and used to mosh all the time when she was younger and has awesome taste in music for the most part and I am so tempted to one day run in her office and grab her for a concert mosh session and it would be so fucking fantastic.

And then at happy hour I was able to talk with the professor who focuses on foreign policy about my ideas for dissertation and he seemed really interested in things I was talking about and that kind of made me super excited.  It is a new area for me, so I like the idea that maybe I'm not already totally fucking it up.

But with what day it is in the back of my mind and with having to constantly communicate all day with no real rest or time for myself to recuperate...it just puts me in a weird mood where I want to do anything that does not involve human interaction.  So I took Callie out for a walk in the freezing cold and then decided to not go to the dinner thing that I really should have gone to so that I could clean the house.  My parents and friend are coming this weekend to visit, so I want things to look nice for them and everything.

I feel a bit guilty, but at the same time I just do not really care all that much that I skipped this thing.  I know that I would just be in a bad mood if I went, especially since we ended up not being able to go to the restaurant we originally wanted to, and our backup was a place that is kind of shit and I really did not want to go or anything.

So I shall clean the house as much as I can because it so desperately needs cleaning.

Oh, and at happy hour, ex-guy sat down next to me and started talking to me, and I'm being friendly with him to an extent, but I still feel weird and awkward trying to talk to him and all.  And thinking about that on this particular day made me want to interact with people even less.

I really can't wait for friend to get here, because honestly, she is the only person (besides parents) that I really want to interact with.  Maybe a dose of her will re-energize me a bit or something.