Today was rather frustrating throughout the day; game theory was really slow and annoying, and whenever we are forced to do a group activity I'm always a bit meh about it.  And today I kind of got into this weird mood while we were doing it where I just kind of wanted to run away and everything so I excused myself to the bathroom and berated myself for a little bit.  Which was a great productive way to spend my time, of course.

Though something that was good was that I had a conversation with one of the roommates about things which have been bothering me and the other roommate and instead of beating around the issues in an attempt to avoid a possible argument, I instead was really blunt about things.  And...it might have worked?  Like I might have gotten through to him about things and that is really kind of awesome.  I hope it did, and I think we are all going to talk about it as a group soon, which will be good to actually discuss things.  Because there has been a whole ton of tension in the house and it has really sucked, especially with the rest of the other shit that is going on with me.

Speaking of, I'm kind of nervous about the wine tour tomorrow?  I'm still on medication and I'm nervous about drinking.  I shouldn't since medication, and I shouldn't because the last time I got drunk was...last December, and it was when I revealed the depths of my depression through a sobbing fit and everything.  Yeah, no fun at all.  But maybe since McKenna will be there, I might be happy enough to not show my depression.  Maybe.  I don't know.


I keep rereading this thing over, and part of me wishes I could just call him and yell at him, or something.  But I won't.  It would just be easier to go through everything that is going through my head if I was saying it out loud and all.

I don't know.  There is a chance of seeing him at homecoming next week.