So my discussion with my doctor led us to think that upping my dosage to 150 mg from 100 might be helpful.  I told him about my lack of motivation and my lack of...general emotion more than half the time, and so we agreed that maybe trying a higher dose would help me and everything.  I did tell him about being tired all the time too, but I don't think that is a medication side-effect.  I think that's just stress and lack of food and all that jazz.

Once again I'm in a situation where I did not complete (or even start, really...) an assignment for a class, and I just have no motivation to get it done or anything.  Really, I just want to sleep.  I just want to sleep and not go in tomorrow.


I realized today I dressed a lot like the ex...or at least how he used to.  Black hoodie underneath my leather jacket, with the hood up for most of the day.  It was warm in the cold weather, but I don't really know why my mind decided to make that connection.  It wasn't my intention to think about that when I put the outfit on.


....Callie is staring very intensely at something on my ceiling and I have no fucking idea what it could be.  And she keeps tilting her head and everything.

...Oh wait, might be a fly.


Once again I find that I had things I thought I wanted to say but now I'm drawing blanks probably because I don't feel much of anything aside from tired.


I was told that I should try and induce a crying episode, to get the hidden emotions that are there out.  That this shutting down is understandable, but it doesn't mean I have no feelings or anything like that.  But the problem is inducing that.  Even listening to Transatlanticism or Such Great Heights doesn't seem to do anything to me other than make me physically uncomfortable.