Cereal

So because I've been having some problems eating again as of late (yesterday and this morning were the worst; I was trying to eat and I swear it felt like the biggest chore and I just did not want to but forced myself to anyway and blah), I've been talking to Nancy a lot about foods I like.  My favourite cereal is one that only comes around during Halloween - Count Chocula, because I am a child.  But I've been having trouble finding it.  My mom brought me up a box and that was all I had.

Then today I get an email from Nancy telling me there was a surprise for me.  She found my cereal and bought me three boxes of it and I am so fhskjfd.  She thought of me and did something nice for me and I am so appreciative.


I am still really tired, as I always am, despite waking up on my own and early.  And I don't know what to do about email, because I don't have the energy to respond to it.  There are so many things I want to say, none of which will get through his head, I imagine.

He claims he's trying to understand, but I doubt that, honestly.

Part of me even doubts he's that sorry.  Is he sorry because he severely hurt me?  Or is he just sorry because I am no longer in his life?  That the reason he's sorry is because he lost someone, and not necessarily because of the damage that he did?

I still do not trust him.

Understandably.