I know I should be doing something, but I can't bring myself to do anything, really.  I should be doing some research at the very least, but every time I look at the books I should read I just sort of groan and want to roll over and not look at them.  I actually took my meds today too, and I know I'm doing really bad with taking those daily, but lately I feel like I really should return to it since - aside from the days down in PA - I've been all lethargic and sad and find myself both wanting company and wanting to be alone. 

And I'm thinking about future events (UC homecoming, Hallowmas, Streetlight concerts...) and getting all weird about possibly being unable to avoid certain people the way I was a few days ago and I don't know why I'm thinking about it.  It might just be a thing where when I'm down I think of terrible situations and everything and normally I'd say I want to sleep to avoid thinking about them, but knowing my luck I'll just have an ex-related dream or some shit. 

I realize that I'm kind of wallowing and probably sound really whiny and all.  

I wish it wasn't hot outside, because then at least I could go for a comfortable walk or something.  But the way it is outside right now I wouldn't enjoy it. 

Also I've yet to send in my headphones to get fixed.  Meh.  I should have done that a while ago so I would have them for the cruise. 

Maybe if I play some Halo, that will cheer me up.  Or at least distract me.  (Though I was trying to play online before and kept lagging...maybe I won't now.  I dunno.)