Follow-up

After a long trip to the vet and stuff, Callie seems to be alright.  They induced vomiting and said she threw up a lot of chocolate and cookie and so I'm really happy I took her in.  Then they gave me a prescription diet and a prescription for some pills for her for a few days, to help with her stomach.

I'm trying to not be so mad, because I knew it was a mistake, but to me it was a really careless one and one that could have been avoided if people just listened to things I asked them to do.  I mean, really.  So I am still aggravated.  Plus...I dunno.  They don't go through the same emotions as me when dealing with her.  So while they're slightly worried - or probably more worried about having angered me - I'm freaking the fuck out over whether or not she will be okay.  They get to play with her and hang out with her and love her, but I'm the one who feeds her, takes to the vet when she gets sick, and worries so much whenever she is unwell.

I wouldn't be able to handle something terrible happening to her.


Nancy did help calm me down through some of this while I was in session, and we talked about last week and everything.  I explained how I threw up at the end of the concert probably because I hadn't eaten since lunch that day, and she asked me why I didn't.  I said I wasn't sure; I didn't know if it would have been an inconvenience to stop before the concert, or if it was also because I was so nervous about the prospect of seeing the ex, that I didn't want to.  My stomach was already in knots.  Most likely, it was a little bit of both.

And then I explained about how I'm already thinking about the next events and what will happen if I see them, and she explained that that is something called anticipatory anxiety, and that if I make plans for what I will do - no matter what the situation - it should help reduce that anxiety.  Which will be a good idea, I think, and I might write about that, but not right this second.


I was supposed to meet the dog that Brendan is looking at today, but after the whole chocolate thing with Callie, I wasn't able to.  And he asked if I wanted to meet him tomorrow or when I come back from my cruise, and I said I would prefer when I got back.  Mostly because I have stuff to do tomorrow and I'm also, very truthfully, not in the mood to drive all the way to Ithaca.  He didn't look very happy when I said that, but I also asked if I could have until the morning to decide, and when he kind of said I didn't have that much time, I just went with what I knew was going to be okay, which is when I get back.  I don't know how long things are going to take and everything tomorrow.  Also, he was originally the one who was going to watch Callie, but since he is the one who left stuff out, I think I'd feel more comfortable with her staying with Dee and Nelson.  And a week with her aunt and uncle and cousin might be good for her.  She can meet and get more familiar with her family.


Also need to call the doctor about my own prescription.  Woo.  Kinda need those pills.