I actually started reading one of the books my professor gave me today, though I only got through two chapters.  I suppose that isn't that terrible, actually...I'm just used to having to get through an entire book in one day and doing nothing else.  But I was getting tired so I ended up playing with Callie and then watching some more Game of Thrones.  I am completely caught up and I might need to start the books at some point  It is kind of killing me not knowing what will happen, especially with one of my favourite character's life on the line.

Though I've been noticing that I think less about bad stuff when I'm home, at least for the time being.  It might still be a product of me not being here for very long, though it is kind of nice.  I also really do think that the more recent meds that I was put on have kicked in and have helped.  Then again, I am always skeptical.  Right now I'm not doing much because I do not want to; I want to just relax and hang out, but what will happen when I want to do other things?  I'm still avoiding, for the most part, things I need to get done.  Car searching has not even been thought about, really.  Cornelius is still in my garage instead of being donated or anything like that.  I should think about other things to do during the summer, since unless I do, I won't go anywhere or do anything.  I am supposed to do things I have not been able to do during the school year.

Obviously, I do still think about stuff and get sad, but it is less when I am distracted.  GoT has given me a great distraction so far, and I'm hoping that I'll be able to keep those distractions coming.  When I think about things, it is usually while I am on a walk and have nothing else to think about.  And the usual will pop up, and the usual will be contemplated.

I am worried that my disposition is going to cause me to want to do something stupid though.