Ended up emailing IR prof asking for an extension because after realizing that case studies were the last fucking thing I wanted to do, I went around and started trying to use quantitative analysis with just a small sample of countries (I guess my "case studies," in a way), though finding data on levels of conflict and cooperation have been really fucking difficult for me for some reason.  I know there is MID and WEIS, but the MID doesn't really capture what I want (and truthfully I'm having trouble reading it) and WEIS only goes up to 1978, when my time is from 1975-2009.  Which is unfortunate, since the WEIS data seems to capture more of what I'm aiming for.

Fuuuuuck.

And since I've been working with data all day, guess what I haven't done?  Writing!  Oh yay!

Holy shit do I hate myself right now why is this so goddamn difficult why didn't I pick something related to fucking domestic politics that's really what I want.

This is hfdsjkfsdhjfks garbage.  I am garbage.  Why.


Random tmi: I miss being naked with someone.  I don't know why that specifically has been on my mind lately.  But I do.  And not even for fooling around or sex or anything (well, those too I guess).  Just kind of cuddles and skin against skin feels and that kind of cutesy loving kind of stuff.  And fun stupid stuff too.  Like cold seat.  And that makes sense to no one but me but I fucking miss doing things like that.

During this stressful time I really could use that sort of stuff.