The department is, right now, in this state of weird calm, but with so much tension that if it does not snap at some point soon, I will be very surprised.  People are rightfully pissed off and shocked, and the more I hear about the way the IR comps went, the more suspicious I get.

Part of me wants things to blow up, really.  It might show that there is deep seeded dissatisfaction among the grad students, and that the way things have been going have been really sketchy and weird and I don't know what to even do at this point.

I'm battle with the cynical part of me that says that nothing can be done, with this idea of wanting something to be done because when you fail the best person in one of the cohorts, you should know you fucked up somewhere.

I've been very tired all day and kind of feeling sad and weird and I can't entirely describe it.


Also, in LoK news, I will forever be Kuvira trash and I have zero regrets about this.