I have this weird knot in my stomach right now.

I don't know if it is because of tomorrow's reunion thing.

Or because I had a conversation with my dad about how worried my mom gets for me because of how stressed I make myself (and therefore how unhappy I am).

Or because I still do stupid things sometimes when I am feeling lonely which include looking at ex-related stuff, because he is the only person I ever had in that romantic fashion and I'm once again with with the reality that he is happy and loved and I am miserable and depressed, on three different meds just to make it so that I don't want to crash my car into a concrete wall or something.

Wheeee this is always so much fun to do.