Reunion

So...I'm pretty sure that coming down to UC and ignoring my work for a weekend was the best thing I could have done for myself right now. Reuniting with friends and watching performances and actually feeling really good just being away from Binghamton is awesome. Hopefully I'll return at least a little bit more motivated than I have been lately.

When friend told me that she asked if ex was going to be here and he said no, I was actually really able to relax, since I was kind of anxious about that possible meeting. But it was great to not have to think about that encounter, and I was able to go to his old house without fear of running into him.

Airband performances were fantastic, though I think it was unfair that one group didn't get anything meanwhile everyone else won an award. I thought that was kind of shitty on the judges' part. And the frat that always wins won again, even though I honestly didn't think they deserved it this year. They pretty much do the same type of routine every year (the whole us vs. them thing), but I guess if it is a formula that works they have no incentive to change it.

After the performance I was able to chat with old friends from my year for a bit, which was really nice. It is always good to catch up. Oh, and friend and I jumped on stage to dance around with a sound (I think sound? Maybe lighting. Something technical) guy because we wanted to. And it was awesome.

Went to a house that I didn't even know existed and hung out with some people for a while, which was fun and nice. We were swapping stories with each other and geeking about games and shows and other cool things (friend made this really awesome thing for a scholarship she is trying for and I think it is such a good idea and I hope she wins).

After, I wanted to go to Omnomwake (real name Omwake), and friend was sleepy and not feeling very well so she went off to sleep a bit while I saw some other people and got to talk some more with people who graduated with me and everything. A guy who was close friends with the ex and I and his girlfriend were there and we were all dancing around stupidly and talking about grad school and our pets and I'm hoping they'll go to Otakon this year because it'd be great to see them there again.

Then I started talking with two other Phi Kaps from my year, who actually shared a suite with ex when we were over for fellows in the summer between junior and senior year. They let me tell them some things, which was actually super therapeutic for me. Then, they both said that they didn't understand why he broke up with me and that it was really unexpected and stupid. And that felt...awesome. That they pretty much asked the same questions I had and have been asking since we broke up. They said basically that it was really volatile and that it was messed up, especially the way it was done. And then I told them some stuff about post-breakup and they were kind of shocked about things I said. But the best thing, really, was hearing that they didn't understand why he did that and that it was stupid, and they kind of said it with this in the context of me being good to and for him and that he went pretty much from wanting to be with me one minute to not wanting to the next.

Hearing that from people who probably were closer to him than they were to me was really sweet. Because it tells me that even his friends thought what he did and how he did it and what he did after was fucked up.

And not gonna lie (this is going to head into tmi territory), we started talking about that summer and how they were next to ex and I and heard...many many things. I was embarrassed but we were all laughing, and then one of them said that he heard a lot. And by that he said he meant that he heard I had a seemingly rare talent when it comes to a certain thing and that I was really good and I kind of took pride in that. Don't ask me why. And then I got high fives. Go me and that I'm awesome at least at that. Aha.

But yeah, it has just been awesome getting out of Binghamton, even if it only going to be for a short time. I will be back here next month too, so that is exciting! It really has been good. I'm glad I came down.