Presenting in the IR workshop tomorrow and I kind of really don't want to because a) I have not worked on this damn paper since I submitted it for class last semester, and b) I just don't care enough to go over everything in detail and will probably fuck up when people ask me things tomorrow.  Even though this paper is my Congress in foreign policy paper and so is actually one I am excited about overall.  I do not have any sort of significant results, so hopefully I'll just be able to get pointers and revisit ideas that some of my professors went over with me when I actually talked to them.  You know, when I was not so apathetic.

Really, I would be better if I could just focus on this stuff.  Things that actually fascinate me and are actually interesting to me.  Instead I spend so much time doing things I just don't care about.  And having to focus so much energy on that shit makes me not want to return to the things I like.

I still have no idea if I'll be able to get away with writing that representation-type paper for my IR class, and I need to actually start my judicial paper, and I need to think of something for my Comparative class.  You know, because I am so fucking good at coming up with ideas and shit.

I've been debating something: when I come back from Chicago, there is a week of classes before spring break (fucking finally).  Part of me has been contemplating just taking that week off, and not going back to Bing when I get back to the Island.  But I'd then miss agility with Callie and I honestly do not want to miss that two weeks in a row.  Plus I kind of need to go to class on Wednesday because it is my week to be the 'peer reviewer' and that is also the domestic politics in IR week and that shit is pretty much my jam now.  Ahhhh poop.  Maybe I'll just skip Monday or something.

Funny, my judicial politics prof went on and on about how we should be working nonstop this weekend and I kind of snorted under my breath because fuck that I'm going to UC to hang with people and actually have fucking fun for once.