Empty

I'm having a lot of weird thoughts and...flashbacks for some reason.  And some of them are concerning and others should be upsetting but right now I just don't feel a damn thing.

So even when ex's memory has randomly decided to plant itself in my head, along with the constant voice telling me that I should give up on everything and that I am not fit to be a scholar, and knowing exactly how much I need to do this week before I head to Ursinus...

All of these things should cause me to have some feelings.

But really, I'm just sitting here.  Coding.  Feeling nothing.  Not happy, not sad, not worried, not anything.

Just...empty.

I'm sure these thoughts will preoccupy me, unfortunately.


Also for some reason certain albums will not play on Spotify for me and that is super fucking upsetting.  ...Is a Real Boy is one of them and this is unacceptable.