"I feel uncomfortable.  Like in between feeling okay and feeling sick." 

This is probably due to my eating too much crap while also feeling like a piece of shit - as usual.  And I tried to start my stupid reaction paper for Monday and it is just awful and I am terrible and can't do anything right. 

This inability to feel super happy just makes me wonder about...things.  I don't know.

And I know I should talk to best friend about it but I'm finding that even that is really hard to do.  Maybe it is her constant working and bottomless work ethic making me feel I'm just worthless for feeling overworked and sad and that I have zero right to complain to her. 

Hopefully going out tonight will make me feel better.