Last night, guy and I opened up to each other a little more about our issues.  His I will not repeat here because I know this is technically public and I do not wish to breach any trust he may have instilled in me.  But they were completely understandable and I appreciated him telling me some things.  I really do.  It felt nice. 

I then told him about my own trust issues and the reasoning behind them.  That I am constantly suspicious of what I mean to people.  That if someone tells me I'm important to them, I will be skeptical, because of what happened with the ex and everything.  That I have fears of abandonment and I had them before I took a chance on him and everything, and what he did amplified my self-worthlessness.  That I'm in a weird state of both wanting to be alone and craving someone to be with.  

He told me I am not worthless and that what I feel is normal, actually, though I disagreed with him.  I just don't want to be abandoned again, but I said I wouldn't be surprised by it. 

I did appreciate him promising that he would keep being my friend.  That he wouldn't up and abandon me.  That I don't deserve to feel like crap.

Although I was sad about the subject of the conversation, I was pleased to hear that.  Even if I only somewhat believe him.  It was still comforting.  

But I've gotten too comfortable before, I suppose. 

Also since no one can watch Callie this weekend, I'm taking her with m to McKenna's graduation party.  It will be fun.