I'm really high-strung and stressed out right now and I just don't feel good and I want to run away from all responsibility and people forever and not have to deal with fucking anything.  I kind of feel like crying but fuck I am too tired to even do that, it seems.

This whole security deposit fiasco has just taken a huge toll on me and I was thinking about other things in the car related to relationships past and new and some other stuff and I just wish I didn't have to deal with emotions and anxiety and depression because it all would make my life so much fucking easier and it would be so much better to deal with everything and I don't want to.

I'm tired of people older than me thinking they can step all over me and thinking that I don't know what I'm talking about simply because I am relatively young and am still in school (oftentimes people ignore the fact that it is for a PhD).

I'm tired of being sad about the ex and constantly thinking about the fact that I would probably be happier in life (though not really happy) if I had never met him.

I'm tired of wanting to never get out of bed and dealing with people.

I'm tired of having fantasies of something I'll probably never have the guts to do in reality.


Here, have some pictures of my puppers.  Because she is sometimes the only fucking thing which makes me happy.