Had a talk with my dad which made things a little better.  He told me that I do not have to come down for my birthday if I really would rather stay and do something with my friends and stuff, and that they know I cannot come down every weekend and everything.  Still though, as much as he says that, I still think that I would end up looking bad.  I don't know.  We will see.  I need to think about stuff.  He did say we will easily be able to celebrate both, but my thing is that a lot of my friends won't be around on the Island.

We'll see.

Talking with guy and he is revealing more about stuff and I really would like him to trust me.  And I know that...that is not realistic really, considering this point in time and his history, but I still would like it.  And I know that it might be the way I am about him - skeptical.  He might be skeptical of the things I say just as I am of him, and considering our pasts, that is completely normal.  But I...want to help, I guess.  If that is the right way to put it, which I don't think it is, especially since I doubt he would say he needs help, and I would agree.

But still.


I've been putting this black goo stuff on my foot today because I'm pretty sure there is something embedded in it (from when I went to the park with the pond) and this stuff is supposed to help draw it out.  Gonna keep it on overnight and then hope that it is relatively better tomorrow.