House meetings are kind of awkward but at the same time, being with my pup and hanging out with neighbours and their pups and seeing them all run around makes my mood significantly improve.

At first anyway.  Now talking about stuff has made my mood kind of meh again, because all the issues I originally believed were going to be problematic appear to be showing themselves and that is kind of really...troubling.  I'm just slightly worried and...I won't lie, part of me wishes I had enough money to live by myself somewhere with Callie and everything and just see friends and stuff.

I dunno.  I just am not feeling good right now and I want to kind of disappear because this sort of stuff is really bothersome to me.  Meh.

We have to have this house meeting because I apparently 'ambushed' someone in suggesting that he actually buy stuff, but seriously, I have spent way more money and have contributed more to this house so...idk I'm not that sorry.  Which might be bitchy, but whatever.  And I think I care less because he basically was throwing a tantrum afterwards and giving the silent treatment and that was kind of obnoxious and I was really fucking annoyed by that.  So I took Callie out with me for a walk, but then called my dad and complained to him, and he gave me some advice and calmed me down a bit.  Then my neighbours invited me over so their dog could play with Callie, and then another one of my neighbour's dogs came out and all three were playing so a while so she is just pooped.  The cool thing is that she was off leash and didn't actually go far, so I'm wondering if I could start training her to come to me and stay close to me while not on the leash, which would be awesome.

(Speaking, I put in a check and info to try and get her into those training classes!  So hopefully I will get a spot!)

And seeing them all play and stuff made me much happier at first, though now I'm back to being kind of meh.

I think Callie picks up moods and stuff, because she seemed really weird when we all came home, and had an accident, even though she only had been alone for a little over an hour, so she really should have been fine.  But I think she was upset or something because of the mood.  Which made me feel bad.  Though I was happier that she was able to have fun with friends.

Though I had also taken her to the dog park again today.  She just has gotten a lot of socialization and exercise today, which is fantastic for her!

But she was really annoying when I tried to give her a bath.  And I wasn't even giving her a bath, really.  I was just trying to rinse her off because she had gotten muddy and everything.  But my god she did not like the bath.  And it was easier when Steph was here because she helped me, but this time I was going at it solo.  Let's just say she completely soaked the bathroom.  And she was going absolutely crazy and stuff. So bath time will not be particularly enjoyable for either one of us.

Bah, this whole chore wheel thing is becoming much more complicated than it needs to be my fucking god it really should not be this hard why are they complicating things so much.  Part of me wishes I just wrote one myself and asked them if it was good or something I don't even know.

Fuck I really should just live by myself because I've only ever been truly happy with one roommate and that was Karen and everyone else has been just...I don't know.

And now the same one I keep butting heads with is just being fucking annoying and is disagreeing with fucking everything and something that is a really good deterrent for people skipping out on their chores and I kind of want to hit him.

This is just really bad and I want to escape somewhere and I don't want to be here right now anymore because I'm starting to just resent this and him a little bit and I want to scream and I want to just run away with my puppy.

I'm just not happy anywhere and that makes me sad.

I just want to hang out with guy, really.  I wish he could be here so I could just hang out with him and no one else and just laze and watch stuff and enjoy each other's company and everything.


I really should have taken my pills today.  I've been slacking on those lately.

Seriously, I kind of just want to disappear.  Which is so normal and everything.  Ha.

I should just live by myself.  I can't work with fucking anyone.  


And I realize I'm being slightly immature right now because I'm just really fucking frustrated and I just kind of snapped at people and stuff but I am so fucking annoyed and upset and I just want to cry and leave and never come back.