At first, when I finally started making plans for this weekend, I was getting rather excited at the prospect of doing the ropes course in the Adirondacks with at least one of my sisters.  When I brought it up yesterday while texting my eldest, she said she was already with my older helping to paint the house.  She unfortunately had to leave before I came up, but I have plans with her on Sunday at least.  What bothered me a little was that my desire to go do something fun for my birthday was overshadowed by house painting.  That no one would go with me because they were painting, and I was kind of asked to help.  Past me probably would have said yes begrudgingly, but I decided to tell the truth, saying that it was not something I really wanted to spend my birthday weekend doing.

I'm trying to decide if that is selfishness or just me taking care of myself for once.  It is hard to distinguish between those two.

Despite that though, I went to see older sister's house, bringing Callie with (who was very very very happy to see people and a new place).  I plan on doing the photoshoot with her on Sunday with my cousin as the photographer and I must say I'm kind of excited about it.

Anyway, before, I claimed I would do the course by myself but that really isn't much fun, and I wouldn't even be able to bring Callie along.  So maybe instead I will try and do some things with her and run around a bit for myself.  Maybe I'll head to some thrift places to shop for stuff for Kurisu!  That might be a good idea!  And I should get ice cream with the pup.  She would love that too, methinks.

I just want my birthday weekend to not suck for once.  Really.  I just want to actually feel happy when it comes.