A conversation which commonly occurs between the roommates and I centers around how we perceive humanity.  Specifically, we usually talk about voters and their level of ignorance and stupidity.  Example, where my roommates take the more...optimistic approach towards voters, claiming that they are either: a) not as ignorant as it seems or b) rationally ignorant (as in they have zero need to learn about this stuff), I am much more of the opposite.  Mainly that people are stupid and that they request too much shit without understanding how things work; low taxes with a lot of services, etc., etc.  They have demands that are impossible and are easily manipulated.

Now, I kind of hate getting into this conversation, especially since it usually dives into our overall perceptions of humanity.  Not only because I am reminded of my own cynicism, but also because I sometimes feel as though they both lord this over me.  I am probably reading too much into it, but I just sometimes get this aura of superiority coming from them.  And that bugs the shit out of me.  Yes, I understand that you both have faith in people still.  I do not.  I have faith in people who have shown themselves to be good individuals, such as my family and some of my friends and stuff.  But fuck, I'm sorry that I have become jaded and everything and have not been able to bounce back.  That I see humanity as selfish and dishonest and all that.  I once had higher hopes but that ship has sailed.  Perhaps it will return one day, but probably not.

I even mentioned that I hated having this conversation to them, and that because of how I see people, I prefer the company of animals.  When pressed on this (and after a few jokes on their part because idk I guess I wasn't serious when I said that I didn't like having the conversation and that they would not want to hear my dark thoughts on humanity), I bluntly said that animals are honest.  They seemed kind of taken aback, first rhetorically asking if I really thought people were not honest, and then inquired on whether or not I was an honest person.  All I said was that I try to be.

After that, some awkward silence followed.

I really hate that conversation.