It is awesome writing emails to your professor about why you didn't complete her assignment, the reason of which is the thing I've been stressing about and haven't been able to figure out.

And I'm so...I guess ashamed is the best word that I could think of, that I told her I wasn't feeling well and that I might not make it to class.  Because I remember our last class involved everyone being able to do things I wasn't able to get to and I almost broke down and had to zone out for a while to calm myself down.

I know people always say that it is important to not compare your progress with everyone else's, but I have always found it difficult to follow that advice.  Probably due to my competitiveness and perfectionism.  It just really sucks when everyone at least is in a ballpark and I'm...idk swimming in the ocean.

(That metaphor sucked, I know.)