I hate this right now I hate this class not due to structure but due to the blatant reminders about how much I fucking suck and have no idea what I'm doing and unlike everyone else I have zero motivation to do anything. I'm finding that even when my roommates try to talk to me about any sort of work I'm getting annoyed and don't want to discuss it and I just want to get away and maybe try and get my own shit together somewhere away from here.
Or I could just go lie in a ditch and bury myself. That'd be effective too.
That medical leave has been on my mind still and it is becoming more and more attractive.
I think I know what you mean. Some classes have definitely made me feel like this. I'll have to say that in this one class I definitely feel like the stupidest one in there. I think the majority of people feel like this too though. Grad students are pretty good at hiding the fact that they have nothing together and are just as lost as everyone else, so I try not to read too much into what they appear to be on the outside.
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