So there was a gigantic mis-communication and misunderstanding about the ride to Baltimore and now I am driving myself, my friend, and my sister down instead of going with my other friend and her boyfriend and I feel absolutely horrible right now.  I hate it when people back out last minute on me, and now I have turned around and done that exact same thing and despite that this is better for me and will in the end be less stressful for myself and my parents, I still feel like I screwed a friend over and I hope she isn't too mad at me.

Originally, I thought she was going to be coming down from Boston.  She would take the ferry down the Island, and pick us up at one of our houses.  At least, up until the other day, this is what I had thought.  Turns out she is coming down from Albany, and asked us if we could meet her further out.  When we started thinking, it turned into us meeting her in Jersey, meaning that our parents would need to drive us out and then pick us up from that place on Sunday.  But then some things came up for my parents, and us getting out there suddenly became a bigger deal.

Then, I became confused when she told us that her boyfriend wanted to leave on Sunday at around 8 in the morning.  However, I usually stay until around 2 or 3 in the afternoon on that last day, and the idea of leaving that early kind of annoyed me.  This was news to me, and I had been operating under the assumption that we would have some time to do things on Sunday.

So, I regrettably had to tell her that due to being unable to get rides out to the meeting place (and also due to the supposedly 8 am leave time, though I left that unsaid) that I would just drive the Long Island people there.

I'm trying to tell myself over and over that this is best for myself and I need to think about that sometimes but I just feel like a huge scumbag who is screwing over a friend and I hate it and I'm a piece of shit.

I did text her saying that I will still pay for my share of her ride, and I might just tell my sister and friend to do the same, and only ask for like...10 instead of 40 from them myself.  I just feel terrible, and at least knowing that she doesn't lose money (or at least only losing a minimal amount) will be better, I guess.

...I still feel bad.