A friend I met at my second year of Otakon has been going through some deep depression and has been hospitalized due to suicidal thoughts and everything.  I know it is not much, but I want to send her an arpakasso alpaca plushie.  We used to joke about llama faces because during our first Ota meet (which we met because I was cosplaying Russia and she was America, both from Hetalia) she was drawing and drew something akin to that and then made the funniest face I ever saw and I could not stop laughing.  And she just kept doing it all weekend and each time I almost cried from laughing too hard and every time I tried to do it I would just crack up and that made her laugh.

An alpaca is not necessarily a llama but it is close and these plushes are so fucking adorable.  Again, I know it isn't much, and doesn't exactly say everything that maybe should be said or what she would want to hear but...maybe it will be nice.  Maybe it will make her smile at least for a little bit, and help her think about how much we laughed during that weekend.

I'll look through some tabs I have open tomorrow.


Unrelated: been having those weird 'what if' scenarios rolling around in my head and wondering about the meeting that never happened.

Whatever.  It doesn't matter now.