Sickly

I really hope I'm not getting sick.  All of a sudden, while in class, I started feeling really lightheaded, as if I was going to pass out or something.  Now I need to teach, and I just feel really kind of awful.  When I get home, I think I'll make something for dinner immediately, rather than waiting for me to work out and then eating.  If I feel better afterwards, I'll exercise, and then maybe eat a small salad to recover.  Otherwise, I think I might just skip today and do today's scheduled workout tomorrow (thus skipping the recovery day for this week), as long as I'm feeling a bit better then.

Alternatively, I can just try to push through a workout, but if I feel like I can pass out now, it probably won't be a good idea to do anything super strenuous.

Also, just found out that the department Halloween party is the day of UC's homecoming.  Great.  Now I can either come home early from homecoming, which I don't want to do, in order to go to the party, or I can skip homecoming altogether, which I also don't want to do.  Or, of course, I can just skip the party.  Which is probably what is going to happen, since I'm mentally committed to going to PA that day.

I wish all this department bonding stuff was not happening when I have prior commitments.  It makes me feel left out, even though most everyone is super cool with me.

But still.

[Edit] - Talked with mis padres, and my dad kind of said that I should really try to go to the Halloween party, maybe instead of homecoming.  Because it is more important; I need to bond more with the new people in my life, essentially.  But I already told people I was going to homecoming...

Another option is I just leave really early, and show up at the Halloween party late.  But.  I don't know.  I want to hang out with undergrad friends too, and most stuff happens at night.

I really want to see him, too.  Though he'll probably mostly hang out with his friends and I with mine, so I guess it wouldn't be the same as if he visited me or something like that...

I cling to the past too much.