"and I don't want old allie.  i kinda like the one i have."

Messages like this from my best friend sent me into sobbing fits, which is...good, in a way.  Because I've been constantly wishing I could be who I once was.  To return to being someone who never wanted to be in a relationship, who focused entirely on her work...  It makes me rethink, at least for a bit, that desire I have, because I'm reminded that I have people who love me now, who have watched me grow and fall and struggle to stand up again.

I still am not feeling well, but...I feel a little better, thanks to her.  I always do, after she and I get to talk.