I really need to get back into the habit of writing in this thing more often.

It does help, but I just lately feel uninspired to do much of anything?  I have two chapters (hopefully) left in my fanfic and all I want to do is write them and finish the damn thing but I'm having such a hard time doing anything that isn't sitting on my ass and going through tumblr for way longer than necessary.

And I've returned back into the mindframe of not wanting to eat a lot because I hate the weight I've put on and everything and I just want it to go away and that's the fastest way to make that happen.  Even though I know I shouldn't do that, deep down.  I'm constantly having battles in my head about food and whether or not I should eat this or that and then feeling guilty about things and I hate it.

Luckily, college roommate is visiting this weekend, so I can ignore all that for a few days while I'm hanging out with her.

And job has been alright; everyone is super nice to me and everything and my boss apparently loves me (she was very complimentary to me yesterday which had me all fdhskjfh and stuff because I can't take compliments because lawl I dislike myself so much).

I should have followed up with Nancy about a therapist for this semester but like...I was afraid of even the copayments (yay money issues!) and afraid of going to someone new for such a short period of time and so I just never did that, probably stupidly.