I'm having trouble accepting my weight and body recently.

Like, I know I'm working out and I'm trying to not eat so much crap (seriously, I stopped buying a lot of stuff because I know I'll just inhale it) but I still feel like I'm so heavy and despite people telling me that my muscle mass is increasing (which...I guess it is), I just hate the way I look, especially when I see pictures of how I used to look.

Then I need to remember that I looked that way because I never ate and I shouldn't want that again but I kind of do.  But I'm hungry all the time.

And the abilify; I stopped taking it for a few days and I was slammed with awful feels so I know I shouldn't do that despite how I'm afraid of it causing me to gain a lot of weight.

None of my clothes fit me anymore, I feel.  None of the pants anyway.  Most of it I think is because of my thighs more than my waist but.  Still.  It is frustrating to me.

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I hate this I hate having body image issues.