My state of mind is really fucked up right now for obvious reasons and it is bleeding into other aspects of my life.

Example - I'm convincing myself that my friend no longer gives a shit about me since getting a girlfriend.  Never hangs out with me, never comes home, didn't even acknowledge me at the party I was at, or ask if I was alright after leaving after maybe 10 minutes.  After being away for six months because of breakdowns, he hasn't made any effort to try to hang out (except for one awkward lunch) with me without his gf and stuff.

But whatever.  It's fine.

I'm the platonic chick friend so I'm automatically kicked aside when romance comes along.

And people wonder why I isolate myself as much as I do.

It's safer.