I need to stop eating so much.

Slash so much crap.

I hate that I've put weight back on because I'm lazy and unmotivated and all that.

But when I think about routinely working out again I just think "what's the fucking point" and then just continue doing some random lazy bullshit because I suck.

It is bad when I miss how I used to eat less than 1000 calories a day, forgetting that I was doing that because of the breakup with the ex and that that wasn't good either.