Just give up - your work is garbage, you cannot handle a simple rejection and you have nothing to offer what others cannot already do better. 

It would be better, wouldn't it? That way you could stop pretending like you might have a place that makes you happy, your parents could be free of you and your constant need for support, your nieces would not have to know how much you suck, your dog would be happier with people who actually are happy...

Spiralling is fun