I hate being startled awake out of a super vivid dream, because then it feels like I haven't slept at all and it is super frustrating.

Dream did involve the ex, but involved me getting to know his gf and we ended up being super tight and then kind of got into a physical fight with him and while I know that would never happen it was cathartic in the dream.  Idk man.

Not really sure why I still have dreams of him, but they are fewer and farther (further?) in-between than they once were, which is good.

I just wish that instead my brain would have let me sleep.

Like I feel as though I'm a zombie right now.