I should call people back.

I know they're just worried.

How selfish am I to have people worried over me about this.  Fuck, I'm really fucking garbage, aren't I.  And I'm doubly selfish for not fucking calling back or answering in the first place.

But I am just.  Not great.  I'm tired.

I was doing kind of okay, I fucking jinxed shit, or something.

I was just talking about this intense fear not too long ago.  And the insanely selfish part of me is saying "leave before others can leave you."


I cancelled class on Friday and I wish I could cancel tomorrow.  I was able to entertain friend for the weekend but I'm back to just.

This.




I need to look at what the plan is for tomorrow.