I wrote this on twit and I know I've expressed this before but

Days that are meant to be 'special' just do not feel like that anymore. I'm not sure if that is a sign of me getting older or if it is my own mental state, but it makes me feel somewhat empty.

Like my birthday passed and...well my sister remembered it before I did.

And idk I was thinking about it instead of sleeping and the emptiness is sort of getting to me. Even though I was surrounded by fam, which keeps me in reality and is very nice, thinking about how the day felt so...un-special (it's late, shhh) has sort of hit me with a deep sadness.