After considering the advice from my doctor, I finally told parents about darker thoughts/suicidal ideation stuff.

I kind of feel numb right now.  I was hoping it would be a weight lifted off but right now I feel this weird dread, like maybe I shouldn't have said anything.

Of course they were both very supportive as always but.

I guess it is the anxiety talking, saying that I should have kept my mouth shut and dealt with it.

We'll see how I feel in the morning.


Also I'm still a bit annoyed with friends, especially after finding out that instead of working like they said (which was the reason they didn't come watch WS before CW), thy were napping.  Like.  Just tell me that instead of lying.

And I don't know.  It hurt.  Cause I wanted it to be a full day of hanging out before Civil War since I had been so excited about this movie for forever (and it was SO GOOD btw, though still doesn't beat out Winter Soldier for me because I love that movie sfm) and we all hadn't hung out like that in a super long time but I guess I'm the only one who cares about that.